Challenges is a good way to look at certain things in life. Sometimes you bring them on yourself, sometimes others or situations have you trying to figure out what to do or where to go next.
For quite some time I’ve wondered what’s coming next and why, though I always would find the positives and run with them as best I could. I’ve realized though that this isn’t always the ‘best’ road to take.
Sometimes you just have to accept and feel the feelings that go with the challenge you may be facing. Easy right? Hell no!!
Recently I was involved in some ‘politics’ within my life and whilst I brushed it off and continued on doing what I was doing, what I’ve always done, it actually had me ‘confused’, ‘flat’, ‘angry’ and a little (ok, quite a lot) ‘hurt’.
I realized that the words that were said and the treatment I received said more about those talking than me but I was still hurt by it… I however kept up my persona and continued to ‘bounce and bound’ ahead one tracked and not a care in the world, after all, it was just a tiny ripple in a pond in the grand scheme of things. So I pushed it aside.
Then came the game changer. A moment or two that set up and defined my current mindset. Not all positivity, shooting stars and rainbows that’s for sure, but it forced me to be real.
This very thing caused me to fall apart, to bend and actually break a little. I cried, a lot but…. Something happened, it took a few days, but there has been a definate shift.
My journey to being a happier, healthier, emotionally and physically fit, confident woman who loves, respects and honors herself is a giant rollercoaster ride and it is really hard to navigate. But currently I feel empowered. There is light, clarity, acknowledgement and acceptance. Coming is change, personal growth and an incredibly exciting yet terrifying journey…
I have a brand new perspective. It’s so hard to put into words but I am seeing things from a whole new angle, but its like I’m on the outside looking in. I’m feeling but more than that, I’m owning it. I’m open to possibilities and change.
I actually believe that I will be ok and that this new unexpected and terrifying yet empowering journey will be worth it. Where will this road take me? Who knows… Right now, I’m ok with that. I’m going to embrace the journey.